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Reawakenings..I am the poster child of pain

Thursday, January 31, 2008 , Posted by fortymaster at 10:49 AM


MY ISOLATION FROM REALITY, KEPT ME IN A DARK CONFINEMENT THAT WAS SOLITARY. MY THOUGHTS WERE LEFT TO WANDER IN THE DIRECTION OF DEPRESSION, WHICH HAD ME FLOATING IN SUSPENSION. IN MID-AIR I GLANCED AROUND THE ROOM, INTERNALIZING THIS SADNESS I REACHED FOR THE BOTTLE HOPING TO DRINK TO MY DOOM. IN DRUNKNESS DESPAIR , I WAS TOO DAMAGED TO REPAIR MY BRAINCELLS SO ALL I DID WAS STARE. DEALING WITH MY FEARS WITH THESE BEERS HAD ME FEELING INVINCIBLE ALL THESE YEARS. NEVER THE OUTSPOKEN ONE, IT WAS EERIE HOW THESE DEMONS HAD FROZEN MY TONGUE. MY SYMPTONS WERE OVERSHADOWED BY A SMIRK, NEVER SHOWING MY HURT, I PROCEEDED ON GOING AS IF MY INTENTIONS WERE TO STAY ON THIS EARTH. DRUGS BEFRIENDED ME PROMISING ME TO KEEP ME AT EASE, TILL I REALIZED IT KEPT ME CLOSE CAUSE I WAS THE ENEMY. ONCE IT GAVE ME AN AFFLICTION, I WAS CAUGHT UP IN ADDICTION SENDING ME UNTO MY OWN PERSONAL CRUCIFIXTION. THE OVERDOSE MADE ME COMATOSE, BEFORE I HAD A CHANCE TO REVERSE THE PATH I CHOSE. THIS JOURNEY LED TO A GOURNEY, WHERE I WOKE UP WONDERING IF THE WORLD WAS STILL TURNING. AS THE FOG CLEARED I SAW MANY TEARS, THEN I THOUGHT I HEARD AN ANGEL WHISPERING IN MY EAR. HE SPOKE AT LENGTH ABOUT THE POWER OF MY STRENGTH, TELLING ME HOW I COULD OVERCOME THESE DEMONS WHO WERE HELL SENT. THEN AS MY DECISION WAS BEING MOURNED, THIS ANGEL GAVE ME THE FORESIGHT TO SEE INTO THE FUTURE ALLOWING ME TO WATCH MY DAUGHTER BEING BORN.










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